I am at that point where I hold my destiny in my hands.  Isn’t it always the case for us all. It just feels more real when you can see the path you want to tread so clearly ahead of you.

After all it’s only a few steps away:

Step 1 – Write first draft of a novel

Step 2 – Edit it to perfection

Step 3 – Beta Readers

Step 4 – Repeat Step 2

Step 5 – Submit

Step 6 – Repeat

That’s the basic formula for my publishing journey.  I find myself in between step 2 and 3.  The path is clear to get to that submission stage and I am at that point where I haven’t quite reached ‘the point of No Return’ so am still at the precarious self-sabotage stage of throwing away all that hard work thus far.  But the excitement within me to create a book – my first book – can’t be ignored.  So I turn to my blog to reflect my journey and to glean some much needed motivational energy from the ethereal online world.

I can never forget the feeling of holding that physical manifestation of an idea in my hand. I remember it most strongly with my card games.  Like giving birth – seriously, and I’ve done this twice – an idea that started in my head can magically appear in my hand is truly miraculous.  All the hard work that went to making it happen – like birth pain – goes away and in its place only love and joy for the thing that came forth from my head.  I will stop with the birth analogy for now it was weird to begin with but I’m sure the point is now understood.

So it is this feeling of knowing how wonderful it will be once I complete this journey and adopt it as my forever ‘thing’ that I want to maintain and keep creating those wonderful ideas in my head to hopefully share with others – that is what is keeping me going.

I therefore cannot wait to get to Step 5 and press that submit button.  However long it will take.